Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Shakespeare's Final Words

This goes to one of the best that ever lived who we lost 2 years ago on December 30, 2007. RIP A.D.
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This past week I spent 90 minutes of my life watching one of the weirdest movies I’ve ever seen, “Mr. Magorium’s Wonder Emporium”. Have you ever sat down and started watching something and although it wasn’t entertaining or exciting in any way, you just kept watching it? Sometimes amusement comes TOO easily. Anyways…once the end of this movie comes around, this scene takes place and Mr. Magorium has this grand exit saying:

“When King Lear dies in Act V, do you know what Shakespeare has written? He's written ‘He dies’. That's all, nothing more. No fanfare, no metaphor, no brilliant final words. The culmination of the most influential work of dramatic literature is ‘He dies’. It takes Shakespeare, a genius, to come up with ‘He dies’. And yet every time I read those two words, I find myself overwhelmed with dysphoria. And I know it's only natural to be sad, but not because of the words ‘He dies’, but because of the life we saw prior to the words.”

“He dies”. That’s it. Although I have never read remotely anything close to Shakespeare, I really got a grasp on this. From every book I’ve read that carries a story with one of the main characters dying, they give this triumphant exit, describing every movement, every word from the character. They describe the setting in extreme detail down to the most obscure of points. And for what? To give people the closest feeling they possibly can get to actually being there in person watching it happen?

Unfortunately more of the same is true for reality. When the moment comes that you see someone pass or that you hear that a family member or close friend has died, more times than none you remember where you were, what you were doing and other small details around you at that exact moment. In a way, dwelling on the moment that Shakespeare sums up as the two words, “He dies”.

Death is a mysterious thing. No one knows what is to come, or if anything is to come once it happens. We are all titled to what we believe in and what we believe is to happen once our time comes. No one knows when it comes, no one knows how it will happen. It, many times, brings tragedy, but in many other instances brings complete euphoria. We all have our own ways of dealing with the passing of people around us, and this grasp that I got on these two simple words speaks so much on the matter.

Why should Shakespeare (or anyone else for that matter) sit on the death of someone by describing it through several pages? “He dies” is all it takes. Who would ever want to be remembered for the way they died and not for what they accomplished in life? When someone reads “He dies” in a piece of literature, probably the first thing that comes to mind is, “That’s it? No big ending? Or finale?” Unfortunately it’s not the most stunning work, but it’s the best that can be written.

The achievements in a person’s life can put anything into perspective for even a complete stranger to understand. It’s how we interact with each other, through personality, materialistic style or human moral. Ultimately, it’s what Shakespeare wanted all along, for the reader to not remember the death, but to remember the person that death happened to.

Life is a beautiful thing. I could easily get all mushy with the details, but I’ll refrain from that. Yet, what a person’s life can entail can be filled with stories you could never believe. The great thing about every story is that they’re all different. Every single story has a different point of view describing the wonder of time and what happened during it. It gives new meaning to each person who walks this Earth. Now, no one said every story was the most interesting out of the box, but to those who knew the one who passed, those stories mean that much more regardless of the “entertainment level”. It’s reminiscing of the pages before the final two words, “He dies”…the beauty of history and of life itself. No one remembered George Washington for his death and no one remembered Rosa Parks for hers. Neither should anyone else, but rather they should be celebrated for what they had done prior to that fact.

So when someone asks what became of a certain person, relate their life in all its wonder, and end it with a simple and modest, they died. And even though it is completely normal to feel saddened by the loss of someone, don’t feel it because of the words "He dies”, but because of the life we saw prior to the words.

Now if all my golden moments could be rolled into one,
They would shine just like the sun for a summer day.
And after it was over, we could have it back again.
With credit to the editor for striking out the rain very clean.
And all it really needed was the proper point of view.

No one's gonna bring me down, no one's gonna stop me now.

Now I gathered up my sorrows and I sold them all for gold,
and I gathered up the gold and I threw it all away.
It all went for a good time and a song, come on.
The laughter was like music, it did float my soul along for a while.
And all it really needed was the proper point of view.

No one's gonna reach me here, no one's gonna know I'm gone.

You may think I might be crazy and I guess you might be right,
but I know the way I feel today is out of sight.
I do not trust your senses to remember your name.
Without corrective lenses, things are never twice the same anyway.
And all it really needed was the proper point of view.

No one's gonna bring me down, no one's gonna stop me now.
No one's gonna reach me here, no one's gonna know I'm gone.

Drive

Drive. Driven. However you want to say it. It's something I've always questioned about people. I've talked to people who have it all planned out as far as what they're going to do in life and I've talked to people who are much older than me and still talk of plans of doing what they dream yet they make no commitment towards it...something that just doesn't make sense. Here are these people who I guess you could say talk the talk but don't walk the walk, and for what reason?

There are plenty of quotes out there that people live by, like the "Life is too short, so live it to the fullest" or "Take every day as a blessing because you never know when it will be your last". To be honest, those two speak leaps and bounds of the drive people have. Taking the bigger things that they don't realize are that big, which are being taken for granted. All of this could really be taken back into the "What Ifs?" and what if we knew how much time we had, but that's irrelevant. Which would you rather do? Sit around and "give it time" to finish things you'd like to do in life? Or actually go out and do something about it, taking control of the situation at hand? Hopefully it's the latter, but it's the one thing I've always realized. What makes us feel like doing nothing with our lives is a good idea?

A good example, if not the best example of this is college...which may be why this bothers me that much, but anyways...

Every year thousands upon millions of students begin their college lives around the world. Most have it together, but what about the ones that don't? The ones that get distracted maybe by the freedom of being off by themselves or feeling as if they don't need to give it a lot of thought because it'll be easy. Throwing in that some of those people who do have their lives planned out already or say that they're going to do something and never do. I could go on for days, upon weeks, upon months just asking why? If it were all THAT easy like some people make it out to be, we'd all be billionaires by now, ESPN would have a million more employees, and even TMZ wouldn't be able to keep up with all the celebrities. Life wasn't made to be an easy road by any means. It's one thing watching people who have already accomplished their goals in life, but to believe that following that same path is possible is ridiculous. At the end of the road would you rather say you took the path someone already laid out for you or to say you accomplished what you did your own way?

One of my good friends lives not by a quote but by a short poem by Robert Frost called "The Road Not Taken"

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I could not travel both And be one traveler, long I stood And looked down one as far as I could To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair, And having perhaps the better claim, Because it was grassy and wanted wear; Though as for that the passing there Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay In leaves no step had trodden black. Oh, I kept the first for another day! Yet knowing how way leads on to way, I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: Two roads diverged in a wood, and I — I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference.


Any time you ask them why they feel so strongly about this poem, it's the same reply of, "It's only a choice". For years I thought he just meant it's his choice to have that be a large part of his life, until I read it again and saw what he meant. It leads into that whole "the grass is always greener on the other side of the fence", but who says it's always the right decision? Maybe it will get you into that comfort zone where you would be content with life, but does it hold what you really want in life? That one thing you grew up imagining you would be when you grew up. Would taking the easy way out just be another way of doing nothing about saying you want to do something certain with your life and losing the drive you once had?

This could easily go on and on with questions for who knows how long, but it all really boils down to a question of how driven are you to get where you want to be and do the things in life you want to get done? But all in all, nobody said it was easy, so go out, enjoy it, live it to the fullest and along the way, learn to appreciate not only the things you already do, but the things that you overlook as you get to where you want to be.

Half way around the world lies the one thing that you want
Buried in the ground, hundreds of miles down
The first thing that arises in your mind when you awake
Is bending you 'til you break, let me hold you now

Baby close your eyes, don't open 'til the morning light
Baby don't forget, we haven't lost it all yet

Don't know what you're made of 'til the one thing that you want
Is coming with the dawn and suddenly changes
The Monday syndicate meets everyone the same
All we've lost to the flame, listen to me now

Baby close your eyes, don't open 'til the morning light
Don't ever forget, we haven't lost it all yet
All we know for sure is all that we are fighting for
Baby, don't forget we haven't lost it all yet

Someday when this is over
We may still have no answer
For now it's when I hold her
We are closer, we are closer

Baby, close your eyes, don't open 'til the morning light
Don't ever forget, we haven't lost it all yet
All we know for sure is all that we are fighting for
Baby, don't forget we haven't lost it all yet

We haven't lost it all yet
We are closer, we are closer

Defying the Odds

Chances, odds and risks. Most of the time, the only place you’ll ever hear those kinds of things is when you’re losing hundreds of dollars in Vegas. But what about in everyday life? Defying the odds of something you would 9,999,999.99 times out of 10,000,000 expect to happen. When you think of a lot of these kinds of situations, it’s usually good things. But then again the same goes with situations you wouldn’t even want to wish upon someone else or nonetheless want yourself to go through.

These situations could be anything from the most casual to the most serious. Like when will the next perfect game be thrown in the big leagues? The doctor gives a loved one 3 months, what’s the possibility that 3 months turns out to be say…3 or 4 years? They all have happened and will happen time and time again, but the rarity of them is another story.

The reason I bring this all up, and on more of a personal level, is that today I believed one of those moments happened. Some could call it a bend on divine intervention, fate or just coincidence. Now I could sit here and explain the entire situation that is going on currently, but I’ll save that for another day. For around 10-15 minutes today, I had a conversation I know I’m not going to forget for a long, long time. It started off like any other I’ve ever had with this person, asking how they are doing, them asking me how I’m enjoying school (regardless of the season) and basically how is everything else going with life (nothing out of the ordinary…just what I expected). Except this time around, it took a little twist.

Given a timeframe of life by some doctor, they lean over and say, “You know…you never really tell me more than what’s going on with school and work. Let’s talk about something else since there’s a chance this might not happen too often.” Now first thought after hearing that is something I basically just don’t want to believe or even think of for that split second. So we begin to talk.

Getting into aspirations of what I want to do with life, where I see myself down the road from where I currently am, the response I would get in return before another question was a smile. No words. Like the friend you always look for that will sit there no matter what and listen to what you have to say. So we talk briefly about the future, have I been keeping myself up to good standards and if I’ve met any “pretty” girls. It was one of those conversations you just can’t help but smile the whole way through and enjoy so much 10 minutes seems like it was 80 (In the best way possible). And then the words of advice as I’m about to leave…

“You know after all these years, I still feel like there is time to be patient with how things will go. For as young as you are, take your time. Make sure you do good and admit your mistakes. If I went as fast as you go, I would be out of breath”

When I first heard it, I really didn’t take much thought into it or let it really sink. But as I was on my way to work, something just sort of hit me. Did they just hit the head on the nail as far as how I’ve been living my life goes? Giving me advice of something I at times forget to do, like they knew all along things like that sometimes escape me?

But for some reason, once I had this realization of what all of this meant. I felt like it began right away. Like it was that final push over the fence to get me to the greener and brighter side of things. Although with that being said, it comes with it’s hardships as I’ve learned, but that’s ok.

We all live in this world where the only constant for us is change. A place where we’re all constantly on the move looking for the next best thing, or quickly trying to close in on our next chapter in life. Yet again hearing that advice, I really wonder why there is the rush. Maybe it doesn’t seem like a rush for everyone, but how many times have we blazed through something not realizing we’re affecting someone else in the process, while if we just took a little extra time, everything would be fine. Aside from time and quickness of accomplishment, the overall goodness, genuine quality and honesty is just as important.

Maybe it’s just me that I can find all this that helpful through the words of “Make sure you do good and admit your mistakes”, but maybe that’s what it takes. A word from someone who has been there, taken the time to realize the same thing themselves and passed it on. Now I started this whole thing off about odds and at this point it wouldn’t surprise me if yet again people are wondering if I’ve realized I’ve gotten off track by now, but I haven’t. I couldn’t even begin to count the amount of conversations I’ve had with this person. Yet all of a sudden this one became different. Stepping out from the regular topics of conversation, I felt they got to know me as more of a person than just another family member they see every holiday. And to me that is beating the odds, maybe it’s not in the best way whatsoever what we were just now having this conversation, but the fact that it happened and we learned more about each other and about ourselves (or at least I did).

I arrived home from work near 1 am this morning. Got word of a phone call from earlier in the night. I’m still unsure of how I’ll exactly take that information that I received, and if it was for the best or the worst. But what I do know is that in some way, a mentality was set through some defying of the odds that it wouldn’t be that simple conversation that I’ve had time and time again, but something more that I can see as some life guiding advice/difference maker.

Keep your eyes open, your ears open and talk with anyone who may need it. You’d be surprised what a few more words or seconds of listening could do.

I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I have been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on

I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days aren't gone

I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on

Mainstream Anonymity

I’ve never quite been able to understand what makes the internet so addicting. Is it the immediate updates for anything news? The networking? The blogging? Who knows…For so many of us, it’s something I’m sure we would have a difficult time trying to go a month without. But then again, there are those people that do that. People that we encounter day in and day out that find the old-fashioned cliché of not needing new technology to live which I think may be one of the greatest things ever. It’s the people who don’t need that comfort zone. That shield people create to hide things and basically advertise other things about themselves.

Now maybe not everyone is guilty of this, but it could be even the smallest thing (and we’ll use Facebook as an example). Have you ever untagged yourself in a picture or deleted a picture because you felt embarrassed or just felt like you didn’t look good enough in it? Filled out of your About Me section, but left out one of the biggest parts of your life because you thought it might look a little better if it wasn’t there? Or for that matter, possibly stretching the boundaries to make yourself look a little more likeable?

Let’s face it, we’re living in a time where the majority of the people out there are star struck, create a “do-no-evil” view of themselves and ultimately, just want to be known. Yet the thing about all of this is that while we’re looking for that micro-celebrity fix trying to make ourselves up to be something we think is great, we’re playing for the opposing team. An anonymity of something millions of people do day in and day out just like you do. The people who live half way around the world from you, but share the same desires and hobbies as you do.

Now that I’ve said all this, it’s this exact thing that makes connection possible and amazing between our friends or even with completely unknown strangers that we may never meet.

Now before you start to ask, “Where the hell are you going with all of this?” I found a quote of logic and basic common sense that really stuck with me…

“New media creates new ways of knowing ourselves”

The more we associate ourselves with these places and sites that are so mainstream, the more we find the good and the bad we have going on in ourselves in addition to finding more and more people who share the same ideas, thoughts and goals as we ourselves do. It all creates a comfort level knowing maybe you aren’t the only one out there who feels a certain way about a certain subject. Or that you aren’t the only one fighting a certain battle.

And in addition to this, through the new ways of knowing ourselves, we uncover pieces of our past that open those new areas to finding people who were interested in the same things that you were. For example, I couldn’t tell you how many times I have seen someone all of a sudden just light up when talking about old 1990s Nickelodeon programs. Hearing the stories and the imaginative things, that as kids, people would think up finding the most joy you could ever imagine. Or even telling stories and somehow along the way, relating to something that may have happened which could then spark another story.

Yet while all of this is there in front of us, we don’t always see it. Not because we don’t want to, but because we get caught up in that star struck feeling of wanting to be known and not seeing the need of association. Whether we like to admit it or not, it makes life that much more calming knowing that out of the billions of people on this planet, you aren’t the only one going through a certain fate.

So how do people who don’t use the cliché Facebook, Myspace, Twitter find themselves to associate with others? Well hell…if I knew that I probably wouldn’t be here jabbing on about all of this. All in all, we all have our own ways of living life and finding that comfort zone be it through friends or friends. Although truth be told, a stranger is just a friend you haven’t met yet.

I look at you, you bite your tongue
You don't know why or where I'm coming from
But in my head I'm close to you
We're in the rain still searching for the sun

You think that I want to run and hide
That I keep it all locked up inside but I just want you to find me

I'm not lost; not lost, just undiscovered
And when we're alone we are all the same as each other

You see the look that's on my face
You might think I'm out of place
I'm not lost, no, no, just undiscovered

Well the time it takes to know someone
It all can change before you know it's gone
So close your eyes feel the way I'm with you now
Believe there's nothing wrong

You think that I wanna run and hide
I'll keep it all locked up inside
But I just want you to find me
I'm not lost, I'm not lost, just undiscovered
And when we're alone we're all the same as each other
You see the look that's on my face
You might think I'm out of place
I'm not lost, no, no, just undiscovered

I'm not running
I'm not hiding
If you dig a little deeper you will find me

I'm not lost, not lost, just undiscovered
And when we're alone we're all the same as each other
You see the look that's on my face, you might think that I'm out of place
I'm not lost, no, no, just undiscovered

I'm not lost, not lost, just undiscovered
And when we're alone we're all the same as each other
You see the look that's on my face, you might think that I'm out of place
I'm not lost, no, no, just undiscovered